lovedrug show - a perfect excuse for driving to lansing with j.starks and going on a mini adventure! one that lead to getting lost, great coffee, lots of walking, picture taking, coughing so much that my stomach still hurts (cigarette smoke, singing and being sick don't mix well) and one amazing set from lovedrug that seemed much too short...
i am seriously blessed to have a friend like j.starks. one who takes me for who i am and never treats me as anything less... at times i feel i don't deserve that. having a friend who understands you, even when you don't always understand yourself is a rare thing to find. at least for me.
sometimes i feel i'm getting too old to stay involved with music, but a conversation from this weekend made me happy that there are people in my life that will always push me to follow those passions.
i was always worried that by seeing lovedrug perform again that it would ruin the perfect image that was in my head from the last time i saw them. standing on a chair in a sea of people just so i could get a good look at m.shephard on the piano. it was one of the most amazing shows ever... and even though the setting was completely different this time around, it was kinda nice being one of the 20 people or so that stood around the stage to support a very good band! i was surprised that there were no songs from sucker punch played, but i didn't mind because that meant more new and old songs that i love... there were no disappointments, except maybe the sound, but from the band, nothing but pure bliss to be hearing them live once again! j.starks did make an interesting observation that the people in the audience all seemed to be musicians of some sort. haha. i suppose that would make sense, because i think it would take someone really into good music to appreciate lovedrug.
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its funny that not even a month ago i was feeling that instead of spring bringing life, that it was bringing death to so many good things in my life. much of that was a choice, i needed to let go of those things and give them up to God and finally surrender to His will and not my own. it brought a lot of freedom to my heart and even though i was sad because i thought i would be on my own for much of the spring and summer, i knew it was what needed to be done. what i didn't expect was how much life has changed in a matter of weeks. some of that being blessing and some of it just confuses me. so i will take what i've gotten back, but with a new perspective. this time i'm going to make sure i seek God's will and not my own. i don't want to be disappointed again and the only way to keep me from that is to not set myself up. if i'm asking every day for God's will to be done then how can i be disappointed if things don't go the way i would like them to, for they will have gone the way God wanted them to.
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maybe spring is bringing new life to friendships i thought i was saying goodbye to, maybe its a chance for me to start on a new path and to truly seek out God's will for me here in michigan and to worry more about serving HIM than serving myself. it is a new day. it is a new start for me, a fresh take on my life and i pray that it accomplishes all that God has meant for me.
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