so hard to concentrate....

i must need a day off, because my brain is going in so many directions that i'm having a hard time picking just one path to stay on. i have all i need to get done for work, and that is what i am trying my hardest to concentrate on, but i just can't seem to get myself in a creative mode to accomplish what i need to do. i suppose its like writers block. sometimes you need to get away and find a new inspiration for what you were working on in the first place.

my heart is heavy for friends, that is definitely part of it...

its weird how the part of life that was throwing me off for the past month is now what seems to be centering it. i'm not going to complain because i'm very thankful to God for the recent breakthrough. i just need to keep reminding myself to follow God's path and not my own, because i really don't want to end up in the same mess of emotions that i was in before.

i can't stop listening to the new LOVEDRUG EP. its perfect. its everything that made me fall in love with their music in the first place. the songs are haunting and beautiful.

i was hoping if i forced my mind to take a break and focus on something besides a brochure for a bit that it might help me finish what i need to... is it working? not yet.

maybe i'm having a hard time concentrating because i'm making a brouchure for a cruise in the caribbean sea that i would love to be going on, but can't see it happening. not only is it a little more than i can afford right now, but it comes at a really busy time at work for me. ok, i really don't ever have a down time, but lots of promo goes out in January.

ok, now i'm getting distracted by LOVEDRUG. ahaha.. i need the sun to come back, or maybe i just need a road trip that lasts more than one night. :) everyone else has been taking time off, but i still can't find time to. and i just keep adding things to my plate for the summer. i really do pray that i will have a place to stay on the grounds this summer, otherwise i don't see myself getting much sleep and being extremely broke from all the trips i'm going to have to make back and forth. sometimes i do wish i lived a little closer to camp.

ok, so i have lots of pictures of friends all over the walls by my desk, but it was just today that i really started to notice all of their stares. some of them are good, others distracting and some are just plain creepy. maybe its time to start re-vamping some of my collages! haha.

only a couple of hours of work left. maybe i will switch my focus from the cruise to kick off programs. ah yes, i bet i could get those done and maybe even printed by the end of the day! that would be nice. i have to start getting promo stuff ready for the tables. perfect. i don't have to think too hard to do that!

i guess writing some of my thoughts did help! ahaha...