breaking my own heart.

for some reason i've been listening to old school haste the day... like burning bridges old, and missing those days of driving to indiana every other weekend. ok, maybe not every other weekend, but it was around those days that indiana was like home away from home. good times.

there is so much still to do to get ready for kick off and its only a couple days away! ahhhh.... i had to take work home with me last night and spent most of the morning shopping for items to put in a basket for a silent auction. today will be busy with moving everything to the youth center, including to very big and heavy speakers. i might have to get creative with that one. haha. its days like today that i praise God for cars and other various forms of transportation that include wheels!

i really need to make myself a to-do book, because the amount of items on my plate at work is ridiculous! and i know that my mind will miss or forget something if its not written down in front of me.

and in all my pulling away from being so involved with Gospel this summer... seem that God had other plans on that one. haha. but why am i not surprised?! i had a very good conversation with one of the people on the committee. but in that one conversation i got myself right back into the thick of things. which is ok. it seems that even though Gospel is not one of my favorite styles of music to listen to, that at least i can appreciate and am starting to feel a part of their family. i like that. its the one reason why i don't mind being involved, everyone is family and its a nice feeling. i hope that with the project festival we can develop some of those family relationships as well.

things are going better at work. i really am just trying to live life day to day, to fully appreciate the time that God is giving me, and to not be so concerned with looking ahead to what's next. its so easy as we head towards the summer to only focus on that. but there is so much in between now and then, that i don't want to wish time away. and i'm trying to be better at appreciating my friends and each moment i have with them as well. sometimes i set myself up for disappointment because i'm always looking forward to that next text or phone call, when i should really just be happy and thankful for those moments as they come. no expectations. sometimes that is really hard for me. but i'm learning. :)

its going to be a BEAUTIFUL day and i'm excited. with each item that i finish and can check off my list, the less of a weight i feel on my chest, and that is a good thing.