yep, another day of feeling sick to my stomach. this makes 3 days in the past 5 that work has caused me to be physically sick, because i'm not suffering from any illness.
why is it that i can't just do my job without having to feel like every aspect of my life is being controlled. i mean, i understand getting your work done in a timely manner and working the hours you are given, but when does what i do or not do at work control my own personal time. this is what i don't understand. i work my butt off trying to get things done for this camp, and is it enough? doesn't feel like it. in fact i get told that i can't spend time with my friends outside of work until i get certain things done? interesting. i didn't know that i signed my entire life away when i took this job 5 years ago. tell me to have something done because it needs to be out for the crowd that is coming in for gospel and i understand and have no problem with that. its my job. i'll do it. but please don't control my personal life by holding work duties over my head. what i do on my own time is my business. just as it is anyone else who is off the clock.
this is just me trying to process...
on a happier note there is another new song posted on oh sleeper's facebook page which brings me much JOY!! i LOVE this new song and it gets me so excited for what is to come on their new album!! not only is the music amazing, but i'm finding that so are the guys, which just adds that much more joy to my heart!! i am very blessed to have finally gotten to meet them. and i wish them all the best with the new cd!!
life is good overall. i press on despite the frustration to find something positive in beautiful in each day. doesn't help me to feel any better physically, but at least my mind is free. :)
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