damage...

this blog post was inspired by a text convo I had the other day... it seems that I get asked this question a lot, so it got me thinking: "why am I still single?" I've come to the conclusion that its not just because I don't have options... yes, that's partly true, you can't be in a relationship if no one is pursuing, but why is it the ones that pursue just aren't worth the effort? I think right now, I am single because I have raised my standards... for too long I've let the wrong boys use me and break my heart, and so now I'm waiting for the guy who will love me for who I am and allow me to love him for who he is. mr right I suppose for me is a guy who is honest and open about all aspects of their life... a man who is comfortable in their own skin and who is ready to be with someone who will love them and support them they way they deserve! id rather have an honest man who is a little rough around the edges than a man who puts on a mask and conforms to the way everyone wants him to be. be forwarned, I see thru fascades and I live in a very black and white world. mean what you say and do what you say. do not be a coward and be of good character. live with integrity. love unconditionally. sure these things might be hard to find, but the truth is, I feel the one who inspired this post also inspires some of the qualities I'm looking for. for I have seen his character in difficult situations and I have listened to him be open and honest thru his music and I believe that the good things about him far out weigh the bad, and one day I know he too will find the love he deserves :)

another reason I find myself single is because I'm not out living the way most single people my age are living. I don't go to clubs, I'm not into one night stands and I'm wanting to find a man, not some boy... to lay the blame on guys not asking me out would not be fair. however what I still don't understand is why the guys that are always asking me this question are good guys, who can't believe someone like me is not taken, but yet they would never ask me out themselves... a little bit of irony there?? I think so. man up and ask me out haha! or don't ask why I'm still single like you can't believe it or that there is something wrong with me.

thank you to the one who ask me this question most recently... you actually inspire me in so many ways... life is too short to live with regrets. I don't try to hide my past, but I do remain hopeful for the future. for now I embrace being single and know that one day the right man will come along. I just don't have it in me to keep trying out wrong ones while I wait, so that is why I'm still single.