end of summer blues....

that's right. summer has come and gone and barely feels like it was here at all. but with the end of August brings our Project Festival, moving out of my cabin, Gospel Music Fest, and getting ready for the CMA Rally.

work keeps me busy as always. its always so weird to see where i was at this point in time last year. the people that were or weren't in my life and how far God has brought me. its really pretty amazing to sit back and look at the events that have unfolded over the past year of my life.

i'm still at Bay Shore. still with my family. and happy.

i'm learning not to question, but just to trust. and to focus on serving God where he has me instead of wondering whats next.

i'm excited about the fall. its my favorite time of year, with the colors and smells and weather....

i've already begun my constant rotation of LOVEDRUG on itunes. not that they don't frequent my itunes on a regular basis as it is, but there is just something about their first cd especially that fits with the moods of Autumn.

one thing that God has taught me this summer is that i'm not alone any more. God has answered my prayers in ways that i may not have understood but am beginning to see in an amazing new way.

i may not have a lot of friends, like i used to, but the ones that have stuck by me and recently entered my life are ones that i feel so blessed to have. its rare that people have one really good friend, and here i find myself with 3 or 4. and at one point it was hard to see this as a good thing, but i truly am blessed.

my mind has struggled a lot lately with whether or not to grow this circle of friends. i've come to the conclusion though that over the past few years i've wanted to know if certain things were God's will, and funny enough, on this one i feel like he wants me to make the decision. either way its a step of faith because i'm not to know the outcome.

i suppose that is a part of our free will. and that in many cases God does not choose for us to know the future, but to remain faithful to Him and trust that He will guide our steps and that when we stop to look back, we will see an amazing road of God moments in our lives. sure there are certain things we can plan for our future, but its still up to God to fill in the details.