i love it when God answers your prayers in ways unexpected. especially when some of them have been prayers of the deepest part of your soul for months.
now these answers came out of pain and brokenness and at a point of giving up. things i should have learned by now, but i'm stubborn, so it often takes me longer to learn/see what God is trying to show me, because in order to see Him, first I must empty myself of me...
its amazing to me to see that no matter how stubborn i am though that God never gives up and at just the right moment shows what you need to know to keep you going in the direction of His will.
i'm thankful that God has made me a spontaneous, fly by the seat of your pants kind of girl. it works for most things. like i generally don't have a problem going where God wants me to my struggles come in trusting God with my relationships with friends.
i always want to see a purpose in all that i do, and sometimes you don't always get that with the people that God brings into your life, at least not right off the bat. sometimes it takes a while to actually see the purpose.
everything starts where it ends:
fitting that this is one of my favorite lovedrug songs, but its true that when we get to the point of full surrender we can finally start to live.
i've learned thru disappointment that its not so much about where you are going, or what ministry you are working with but how you portray Yeshua to the world around you. strive to love and put others ahead of yourself and i believe you will find yourself in the midst of where God wants you to be.
i've always been a dreamer and one that will jump into something if i feel even the slightest pull that this is what God wants. why? because i trust that He will use me where i'm at and that He will take care of me. i think life is too short to be too concerned with where to go, so i look at everything as an adventure. probably why i love pirates so much. and the thought of calling the road home. i've always had a hard time thinking that i should settle down in one spot because i like the freedom to be able to go.
God has restored balance to my life recently and with that balance has come joy. i often times speak of a disturbance in the force or the universe being out of whack when certain things happen. but there is nothing like the feeling that the world has been righted and life is spinning in the right direction again.
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