not me. i'm having a really difficult week. and its frustrating because i feel like i am put into a box. i feel like there are people around here that are afraid of people who think outside the box. why is it that people are so afraid to color their worlds.
everything being bland and white, where is the fun in that? i guess i knew things would have to go back to the way they were, it seems that people who don't like change are afraid of people like me. haha. i tend to shake things up where ever i go. for the good, hopefully. it seems i will be without a bed this summer, but my futon will make due.
i'm trying hard to love people that seem out to get me. funny that i'm reading about loving your enemies, and God challenges me with it. and not enemy in the true sense of enemy... but you know, those who make it hard to want to love and trust them.
if we are to be like Jesus (as christians), then why is it that we are so selfish and only able to look out for whats best for us. to be so blinded that we hurt people we are supposed to work with, for the "good" of what we want in our own lives. Some things are temporal, others last a life time.
its like the people in the church that fight over how a building looks but pay no attention to the people in it who are hurting, or the love that they could be spreading to those in their congregations. when will we stop being concerned with the things of this world that will pass away, and start to focus on our relationships. people are way more important that the color one chooses to paint on a wall. but sadly some people can't see past this. they think that a bright color on a wall = rebellion. i am not a rebellious person, i follow the rules set out before me. i put things back the way i found them. at least when i'm at work.
i guess there is nothing you can do if others are out to get you, i just hope that people can see its not bringing unity, its bringing division. God does not go behind our backs to tell our secrets to the Father, He walks with us and challenges us to do it ourselves. He supports us and loves us and uses His kindness to bring us to repentance. so why do christians feel they need to judge to make themselves look better? the very nature of Jesus was to be a servant, to think of others first. its a sad day in ministry if we can't be like Jesus. if we are so concerned about ourselves and what we want that we can't love.
i know i'm not perfect and i do a lot of things wrong, but i would hope that painting a room or moving some furniture isn't so bad that i'm hurting the ministry of the camp by it. especially when it can be undid so easily.
my lesson for today. let us learn to love and not judge. let us be open with each other in love and not sneak behind people's backs. let us work in unity and love to all those around us. how in the world can we expect God to use us if we can't even love those we work with. and the bigger question there, is how can we God if we cannot first show that same love to those around us. love is just a word unless it is followed by our actions. Jesus didn't just tell people he loved them, he showed it thru every action that proceeded from him.
why is it so hard for us to understand that we are all made different. that we are all a part of the functioning body of Christ here on this earth. why is it that we are so quick to judge someone based on their appearance, or them not doing things our way. yes, my mind doesn't work like everyone elses, my brain thinks of things in a creative way, don't try to understand me, just accept me. Jesus would. Jesus would see my colorful way of seeing the world as part of the beautiful creation he made. Colors reflected in my life are only meant to reflect the colors that He has already used to paint this world.
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