saints and moons...

so i can't seem to stop listening to the boondock saints soundtrack... but i suppose that is ok. its a nice mix to work by.

i finally watched new moon last night. i have to say that i'm glad i didn't see it in the theater. i was highly disappointed. i for one am a fan of jacob black. and i was super excited because this was to be his story... the movie however, left out way too much. i am so glad that i read the book and could fill in all the gaps, and i suppose if you haven't read the books, you would be more interested in bella and edwards relationship anyway, so it wouldn't really matter.

all this to say, i know how the story ends, so i can understand the not playing up of the relationship between bella and jacob, but i think that they are leaving out a key element of the story to not show the real conflict in bella's heart leading up to eclipse. yeah, the movie hit on all the big moments, but what about the little ones, those are the moments from the book that made me cheer for jacob. although i always thought that he deserved better than bella. but maybe i cheer for the guys that come in second best because i have been in that situation before. the best friend that never has a chance... yeah, so i suppose i'm a little sympathetic to jacobs character, which is why even thought i thought new moon was a good movie, i was highly disappointed.

enough about that. thank goodness all saints day didn't disappoint. :) although, i did have to watch it more than once to fully appreciate all of its goodness! and found that it is best to watch it after seeing the first one again.... it did help make for a great week of celebrating st. patty's day. watching both boondock movies, searching high and low for the soundtrack, making rainbow cupcakes, wearing an outfit to work that everyone else thought was silly.... it turned out to be a great day and week of fun!

i'm glad that i can celebrate st. patty's day again. for a few years, i didn't like to think about it, or what it reminded me of. this year, however, was different and i'm glad.

its weird because as people come and go from my life, i'm reminded that there is a purpose in each friendship no matter how long or short lived. its just hard when you expect them to last longer than they do... last year at this time i was spending most of my extra time in saginaw... i kinda miss those days, and yet, i can see how we have all kinda gone our separate ways, or gotten busy with other things. its hard though, when friendships just move on and you don't really understand why. sure time and busyness can threaten even the best attempts, but you are still left to wonder if you really meant much to the person when they don't make time for you... and i am guilty as well for not always trying to keep things going, so i don't blame anyone when it happens, it just seems that as i'm heading into spring and summer that i'm back to being alone... sometimes i guess i just wish that my friendships around here could last longer than a few months/year... but maybe they aren't meant to. maybe i really am meant to be alone as i follow the will God has for me. (and by alone i don't mean not to be in a relationship - i mean not to connect with people on a friendship level) i do have a couple of friends from my days before i moved home that have survived and continue to grow and i am ever thankful for them... i don't know what i'd do without them. sometimes i just wonder why God only answers my prayers for short times here in michigan. i pray and ask for friends and people to connect to that share similar interests, and i get them, only to slowly watch them fade away after months pass. and every time i think things will be different, they turn out the same. i guess its just a part of growing up and getting older. the hard part is that the more this happens, the more i want to just give up and not put any time into friendships at all, which isn't good either.

so... i choose to get up every morning and pray for God's will to be done, to work hard at the ministry He has called me to and to remain hopeful.