dinosaur

sun shines thru my window reminding me that its going to be a beautifl day! one more day off and two more days of work before my next adventure begins. Chicago, I will see you Tuesday! its funny how once adventure gets back into your blood how its had to stop it. I was born to live free. to be a little crazy and impulsive. afterall, they say I have some gypsy blood running in my veins :) last night I had a dream I was at a lovedrug show.... woke up though before I saw any of them. that makes twice this week. only the previous dream I actually saw them play and hung out with them. I love that new adventures mean finding good food too! I could definitely go for thai or middle eastern. this refound independence is great! and I'm very thankful to have a job with flexibility. I guess I never realized how much life camp sucked out of me. how in a place where I should have flet open to completely be myself I found myself hiding from what truly makes me happy. for as much as I loved camp itself, I don't miss the way people were treated or continue to be treated. I know I'm not perfect and that I made mistakes while I was there, and I actually find it funny that I lost my job there because I was friends with a boy! and yet getting fired was the best thing that ever happened to me! it just took me awhile to see it. I am refinding myself. I am no longer being held down by the weight of all the darkness that hung over the office. I can breathe again! I can go to a job were I'm not stressed out, where I'm not wondering each day when its going to be my last and I have a life again! hanging out with friends and family. I am so looking forward to spending a summer enjoying some free time instead of working so many hours that it takes me months to recover once summer is over. I thought I would miss camp as it got closer, but the truth is I'm happy to be gone. maybe one day people will start to care for each other again and learn to truly love. and I can go back and enjoy the things I once loved. now back to this new adventure...