morning sickness

when we said goodbye all seemed ok. my expectaions had not changed. everything was supposed to just keep going like it always had. but something changed in your mind and now I'm left confused... and feeling like I lost a friend. its killing me on the inside and I don't know how to fix this. please, don't run away. please don't take away one of the best parts of my life for the past few months because u think that its all or nothing. not all girls are the same. not all handle situations the same. spending time with u didn't all of a sudden make me fall in love with u. please don't over think this. let's just be a part of each others lives and live in the moment, not try to figure out the future. its one day at a time babe. I care about u, this is nothing new, but its because when I look at u I see a man who deserves happiness, who deserves not to be judged for his past. I'm not ignorant of it, but I don't see how that has to dictate us now. there are so many things I wish I could say to u... so many things I wish I could convince u to believe about yourself. take the time to get to know me and I think u will be surprised by what u find. don't give up because u are scared. aren't we all. letting someone in is never easy. but think of what we miss out on in life if we push away the good things because we are scared. I'm scared too babe. if you only knew the walls that surround my heart u would understand that u may have gotten out of the shire, but the rest of the journey is like making it into the very heart of mordor. don't be afraid to let someone care about u. we all need people in our lives that support us for who we are. this is just a few of the things I would say to u if I knew u were listening...