ok, been listening to oh, sleeper all week. :) its one of the few things keeping me sane as we come to a close on our first week of camp. that and knowing that on saturday i get to hang out with mantel and jrose and finally see super 8!!
i was reflecting last night on my drive home from camp how different things can be only one year later. last summer was all about me and what i wanted camp to be, i was very selfish and realize now how my actions affected more than just me... this summer everything is different. we have a great group of summer staff, and i'm finding much joy in getting to know them. i'm also excited to have one of my dear friends here for fishing camp. its amazing to see how God will allow us to have the desires of our heart even if He knows its not what's best for us... and then teach us through the process that those desires we had, when not centered around God first, can be destructive.
the enemy is crafty, and he knows how to strike at our weaknesses, but allowing yourself to see that and move past it and claim the promises of God in our lives, brings such freedom. i'm finding that what i once thought was so fun, actually was killing me on the inside... the pain of breaking away from sin can sometimes feel unbearable, but i can honestly say that it holds no joy for me anymore, and i would rather have friendships built on trust and purity than the sin that can so easily ensnare us.
its been a long road to surrender and finally let God have control of this area in my life, and now i just wish i would have been able to do this a bit sooner. i'm so thankful to have had some amazing men of God in my life this past year that have helped me see that following God is so much more rewarding than the temperamental pleasures of sin.
some of my friendships were hollow and void of life because i built them on false hope. all the attention in the world was never going to be enough to satisfy me because those friendships were void of God... now my friendships are healthy and fulfilling because God is at the center of them. its sooooo refreshing!
a life lived souled out to God is still the best life worth living. i'm glad He is helping me rediscover that and in the midst blessing me with friends that help keep me accountable. :)
as i sit and look at the summer before me i am super excited for the new friendships being formed and for all the cool ways that God is at work!
i'm looking forward to seeing oh sleeper and emery and hopefully underoath this summer. i could use a few good shows and seeing some old friends to keep my spirits high and to keep me from burn out. :)
i can sense another blog post coming on about music... but still want to formulate some of those thoughts first.
until then, please check out oh, sleeper!!
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