eclipse

so i needed to get away for a bit, after my 38 hours of no sleep, so i decided to give eclipse a chance. while there were some good parts to the movie, for the most part i was disappointed. i have always been team jacob. and have always felt that the movies never really conveyed the struggle in bella's heart of how jacob was her soul mate, but edward the one she chose.

and they left out so much in the movie that i felt like it was choppy and hard to relate to. and the part that made me the most upset, was in the beginning. i was waiting for the scene where jacob comes and steals bella from school because edward won't let her go see him, and they had to go and combine it with his confronting edward.

oh well. its just a movie.

my mind would not let me sleep last night. and usually its because of one person, but last night it was not that person, but all the other craziness that is going on. and i suppose its not really craziness. i think its just that i really want to talk to someone about it, but yet, at the same time i don't want to say anything. i suppose what i really need to do is just spend some time with the Lord and journal out all these crazy thoughts. maybe i don't need to tell anyone but God.

either way, what's in my head needs and out or i'm afraid i won't be sleeping again tonight.

funny thing is that it shouldn't be so complicated, i just make it that way in my head. haha.

camp is going well. i can't believe we are half-way thru. and I'm learning a lot. sometimes i really don't know what i would do with out one of my best friends. this person always challenges me to see things from other perspectives and isn't afraid to tell me the hard things that no one else may. and i'm sure a part of that comes from the fact that no one else really knows me the way he does and i appreciate every aspect of our friendship. and i honestly do not know what i would do without it.