yes, a lovedrug mood again. as always. haha. its just a natural with me. i'm having an unexpected great week. and its a bit sad that it will come to an end soon.
God has also been calling me back to many things. prayer being one. its a good thing though.
getting ready for baseball/softball camp next week and its going to be great.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Monday, July 12, 2010
eclipse
so i needed to get away for a bit, after my 38 hours of no sleep, so i decided to give eclipse a chance. while there were some good parts to the movie, for the most part i was disappointed. i have always been team jacob. and have always felt that the movies never really conveyed the struggle in bella's heart of how jacob was her soul mate, but edward the one she chose.
and they left out so much in the movie that i felt like it was choppy and hard to relate to. and the part that made me the most upset, was in the beginning. i was waiting for the scene where jacob comes and steals bella from school because edward won't let her go see him, and they had to go and combine it with his confronting edward.
oh well. its just a movie.
my mind would not let me sleep last night. and usually its because of one person, but last night it was not that person, but all the other craziness that is going on. and i suppose its not really craziness. i think its just that i really want to talk to someone about it, but yet, at the same time i don't want to say anything. i suppose what i really need to do is just spend some time with the Lord and journal out all these crazy thoughts. maybe i don't need to tell anyone but God.
either way, what's in my head needs and out or i'm afraid i won't be sleeping again tonight.
funny thing is that it shouldn't be so complicated, i just make it that way in my head. haha.
camp is going well. i can't believe we are half-way thru. and I'm learning a lot. sometimes i really don't know what i would do with out one of my best friends. this person always challenges me to see things from other perspectives and isn't afraid to tell me the hard things that no one else may. and i'm sure a part of that comes from the fact that no one else really knows me the way he does and i appreciate every aspect of our friendship. and i honestly do not know what i would do without it.
and they left out so much in the movie that i felt like it was choppy and hard to relate to. and the part that made me the most upset, was in the beginning. i was waiting for the scene where jacob comes and steals bella from school because edward won't let her go see him, and they had to go and combine it with his confronting edward.
oh well. its just a movie.
my mind would not let me sleep last night. and usually its because of one person, but last night it was not that person, but all the other craziness that is going on. and i suppose its not really craziness. i think its just that i really want to talk to someone about it, but yet, at the same time i don't want to say anything. i suppose what i really need to do is just spend some time with the Lord and journal out all these crazy thoughts. maybe i don't need to tell anyone but God.
either way, what's in my head needs and out or i'm afraid i won't be sleeping again tonight.
funny thing is that it shouldn't be so complicated, i just make it that way in my head. haha.
camp is going well. i can't believe we are half-way thru. and I'm learning a lot. sometimes i really don't know what i would do with out one of my best friends. this person always challenges me to see things from other perspectives and isn't afraid to tell me the hard things that no one else may. and i'm sure a part of that comes from the fact that no one else really knows me the way he does and i appreciate every aspect of our friendship. and i honestly do not know what i would do without it.
Friday, July 9, 2010
3 sleepless nights
well so far its been two. trying to keep up with all my jobs this week has been a bit harder than i thought. but i pulled an all nighter and got much of the work done last night, so i'm feeling good about today. i've got one more dvd to finish, candy store accounts to settle and making sure things are set for the sr. music program sound wise.
i am hoping i made the right choice by staying up. i knew if i slept for an hour i wouldn't want to get back up, so hopefully i can take a nap later. :) this might be harder to pull off than i thought. i'm not as young as i used to be. haha.
but thanks to zac i have been able to make it from 4:30 til 7:30. haha. thank God for good friends who stay up all night too. :)
i am hoping i made the right choice by staying up. i knew if i slept for an hour i wouldn't want to get back up, so hopefully i can take a nap later. :) this might be harder to pull off than i thought. i'm not as young as i used to be. haha.
but thanks to zac i have been able to make it from 4:30 til 7:30. haha. thank God for good friends who stay up all night too. :)
Monday, July 5, 2010
i turn mood rings black.
i can't believe my last post here was before camp started! i suppose that is how busy i have been. the past 3 weeks have gone by so fast and so many memories have already come and gone that its crazy to think about!
before the summer i was clueless about pop music, i'm still no expert by any means, but i'm starting to be in touch with the "real world" - haha. some songs have stuck in my head longer than they should have.
i do have to say that my favorite right now is the cover haste the day did to "meet me half-way"
camp has been great. and this morning i just saw my dad go by my window on a golf cart that was being pushed by another golf cart! it was a great. i think it was the same one that died on me a couple weeks ago.
my cabin is great and i enjoy it and appreciate having it so much! it was a true blessing from God for this summer. especially with the kind of hours i've been putting in at work.
life kind of threw me for a loop last friday, but its getting better. sometimes you think you are going one way, and the door that was open closes and you're not sure why, but all you can do is choose to trust that God still has a plan in the midst of the uncertainty. sometimes i'm glad that God can move me past disappointments so quickly. i suppose its because a good friend of mine helped me to see that life's disappointments usually come because we jump ahead of God's will for our lives, or we get a glimpse into the future and think that we have everything figured out only to find that God was using it for a different purpose. so after i feel like crap for a day, i give it to God and trust that He still knows what's best and all i can do is take one day at a time.
yesterday was a good day. as was saturday and sunday. family time always helps cheer me up. and the grantham boys might as well be family so it was fun hanging out and going to see the bay city fireworks with them.
my niece actually made me start to wish that i had a kid as awesome as her. we were playing a game on the wii and she was beating me pretty badly (keep in mind she is 4) and everytime she would score a lot of points she would just look at me like, "that's right, I'm AWESOME!" i think she takes after me a little too much! haha. but it made me happy.
its the little things in life that we need to find joy in :) i'm learning that again. we miss out on so much when we are too concerned with the future. so its actually kind of nice having a set back, because now i can only see one day at a time. i do not know where the future will take me, all i know is that i'm at camp and finding ways to love it thru the busyness, that i've got an amazing family and great friends who i love dearly and right now, that is enough.
before the summer i was clueless about pop music, i'm still no expert by any means, but i'm starting to be in touch with the "real world" - haha. some songs have stuck in my head longer than they should have.
i do have to say that my favorite right now is the cover haste the day did to "meet me half-way"
camp has been great. and this morning i just saw my dad go by my window on a golf cart that was being pushed by another golf cart! it was a great. i think it was the same one that died on me a couple weeks ago.
my cabin is great and i enjoy it and appreciate having it so much! it was a true blessing from God for this summer. especially with the kind of hours i've been putting in at work.
life kind of threw me for a loop last friday, but its getting better. sometimes you think you are going one way, and the door that was open closes and you're not sure why, but all you can do is choose to trust that God still has a plan in the midst of the uncertainty. sometimes i'm glad that God can move me past disappointments so quickly. i suppose its because a good friend of mine helped me to see that life's disappointments usually come because we jump ahead of God's will for our lives, or we get a glimpse into the future and think that we have everything figured out only to find that God was using it for a different purpose. so after i feel like crap for a day, i give it to God and trust that He still knows what's best and all i can do is take one day at a time.
yesterday was a good day. as was saturday and sunday. family time always helps cheer me up. and the grantham boys might as well be family so it was fun hanging out and going to see the bay city fireworks with them.
my niece actually made me start to wish that i had a kid as awesome as her. we were playing a game on the wii and she was beating me pretty badly (keep in mind she is 4) and everytime she would score a lot of points she would just look at me like, "that's right, I'm AWESOME!" i think she takes after me a little too much! haha. but it made me happy.
its the little things in life that we need to find joy in :) i'm learning that again. we miss out on so much when we are too concerned with the future. so its actually kind of nice having a set back, because now i can only see one day at a time. i do not know where the future will take me, all i know is that i'm at camp and finding ways to love it thru the busyness, that i've got an amazing family and great friends who i love dearly and right now, that is enough.
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