alice, emails, phone calls and sleep....

well, not necessarily in that order... life is interesting right now to say the least. summer has officially started around camp which means i eat sleep and breathe camp. thankfully God has seen fit to break up that craziness with some time with friends. :)

i watched alice in wonderland again last night, cleaned my cabin, enjoyed laughing with a friend on the phone, did some work and was in bed before midnight. it was a good night. :)

and again i find myself truly blessed by the friends that God has given me. and what probably amazes me even more is that they know how to encourage my heart at just the right times.

as i walked down the road to the office this morning my heart was full of joy and thankfulness.
i love that God knows what we need when we cannot see it for ourselves. i love that God knows what is best for us and if we chose to trust HIM, even when we don't understand Him that He will work out the details.

i don't know where i'm headed, i know where i want to go... but i still do not know for sure how God is going to choose to work out the details. but i am convinced of His goodness and faithfulness in my life. I am convinced of His love for me and others. i am convinced that He wants what is best for me and that i need to learn to trust Him a bit more than i do.

It's a bit freeing when you are finally able to face things in your life that you never thought you could let go of... but its better to give up your hopes and dreams and let God fill you with His, than it is to walk this life half in your will and half in His. I want to finally be walking in His full will for my life, to go where He wants me to go, to bless and encourage those that He puts in my life and to be the best friend that I can be to those that are a part of my life.

friends are the ones that you would lay down your life for; that you want the best for; their happiness means more than yours.

i've realized the real joy in my heart comes from seeing God bless the lives of my friends and family. not from what is happening in my own.