overwhelmed.

its good to know that the times we feel overwhelmed with the tasks that lay before us, that we are not alone. i have been put in charge of an auction to which i have very little knowledge about, and a committee, that i don't really know. i have so much to learn, and very little time to do it all. am i going to have to rely on the knowledge of the committee members and God to get me thru this next month, keeping my sanity and having fun at it. i love doing events. they are my thing. but i suppose concerts are my specialty. i miss that people in chicago at least realize that, and for the most part have appreciated it. around here, no one seems to think that i could do something like that. i guess they never heard of j-kid fest or heart and soul cafe. seeing haste the day, really made me miss being a part of shows. it was my life for so long... i guess i don't miss all the stress of the shows, but i miss the bands and the kids and the family of people that grew up around them. i miss waking up in the morning to numerous guys walking around our house and the smell of pancakes cooking in the kitchen. i miss having a house were anyone and everyone was welcome and family. its hard to believe that so many years have passed since meeting so many of the bands... but i am very thankful to have the memories that i do. not many people can say that. i'm also very thankful for the friendships that have remained thru time. i am so proud of my friends/family that continue to press on in the music scene and can only pray that one day maybe i will get to work with you again in a show.

so back to events. i hope that someday people around here will see that this was my life and that i have some skills at it, and give me a chance to use some of my old strengths to benefit a new place.

i pray that i am able to help make our auction a success. and that i can do the jobs laid out before me to the best of my ability... Lord, i need you to make it thru another year. i look forward to so much, and in the midst of that still feel very blessed.

wow. i can't believe my franny is in hungary. i miss her.