overwhelmed.

its good to know that the times we feel overwhelmed with the tasks that lay before us, that we are not alone. i have been put in charge of an auction to which i have very little knowledge about, and a committee, that i don't really know. i have so much to learn, and very little time to do it all. am i going to have to rely on the knowledge of the committee members and God to get me thru this next month, keeping my sanity and having fun at it. i love doing events. they are my thing. but i suppose concerts are my specialty. i miss that people in chicago at least realize that, and for the most part have appreciated it. around here, no one seems to think that i could do something like that. i guess they never heard of j-kid fest or heart and soul cafe. seeing haste the day, really made me miss being a part of shows. it was my life for so long... i guess i don't miss all the stress of the shows, but i miss the bands and the kids and the family of people that grew up around them. i miss waking up in the morning to numerous guys walking around our house and the smell of pancakes cooking in the kitchen. i miss having a house were anyone and everyone was welcome and family. its hard to believe that so many years have passed since meeting so many of the bands... but i am very thankful to have the memories that i do. not many people can say that. i'm also very thankful for the friendships that have remained thru time. i am so proud of my friends/family that continue to press on in the music scene and can only pray that one day maybe i will get to work with you again in a show.

so back to events. i hope that someday people around here will see that this was my life and that i have some skills at it, and give me a chance to use some of my old strengths to benefit a new place.

i pray that i am able to help make our auction a success. and that i can do the jobs laid out before me to the best of my ability... Lord, i need you to make it thru another year. i look forward to so much, and in the midst of that still feel very blessed.

wow. i can't believe my franny is in hungary. i miss her.

new music!

ok, so one great thing about the fall is new cd's and shows! i'm so excited for new recordings from friends: UNDEROATH and HASTE THE DAY! and i'm excited about new music from Lovedrug. i'm sure there is more to come, but these are the ones i'm really waiting for!

and along with new cds comes tours to promote them, which means i'll be getting to head out to a few shows this fall as well! whoo hoo! and you throw in that fall is my favorite time of year and that halloween is fast approaching, as well as football season and the changing colors of the leaves... and the crisp/cool nights that are perfect for star gazing! wow! just way too many things to be excited about, and this little blog of mine doesn't even begin to cover them all!

why is it that sometimes i feel like my phone is disconnected from the real world?? hmmm... maybe it is.



all is lost for us if heaven fails...

fall is approaching!

i don't know what it is about summer ending and fall beginning that makes me feel like writing, but here goes. this summer has really been great. i can't even believe all the people God has put in my path. They are all truly amazing and i feel so blessed to call them friends. Also, it seems that God is opening a door to reconnect with old friends. the only down side is that it really makes me miss doing shows. I mean, the days of heart and soul were the best of times, really. the venue had some great shows as well, but the family that was birthed at heart and soul shows will always remain in my heart. maybe someday i will get back there for a reunion of sorts. they are however doing shows again...

i'm ready for the summer to be over because fall is shaping up to hold some great times ahead... more shows, birthdays, football games and the most amazing weather ever!!

tonight i'm chosing to look ahead towards an amazing future, one that i may not even be able to comprehend, but i know its gonna be good. the reason, because i'm choosing to follow the path that God has for me once again. I'm choosing to let go of all that has hindered my relationship with Him and i'm striving towards His heart again.

fall is an amazing time of reflection for me, and this one will be no different. God i ask you to make it amazing.