spiders...

today is going to be a long day... work will not end for me until around 10pm. thankfully its the end of the week. and hopefully this weekend i'll get to hang out with friends.

on my drive to work this morning i was noticing how the clouds were thick and heavy over most of the sky, except in one small spot, that was oddly enough shaped like an eye. the sun was bright and direct as it came through the clouds and looked like a fiery eye. its rays piercing through like that of a gaze you cannot break free from.

then the eye seemed to close and i was left with the feeling of being in a room with a dimly lit light on a ceiling. it was quite cool to experience how the clouds could form such a barrier like a wall or a box with the only light coming from the top... usually in the morning the sun is rising in a horizontal fashion that blinds you as you drive... but not this morning.

then i get to work and no one is parked where they usually are... so not knowing what is going on, i join them up at the front of the office. i guess it was because of a tree being trimmed.

so the start to this day has been and interesting one to say the least.

miss california

beginning my day with soundtracks from the harry potter movies...

today i am trying to fishing what i began creating yesterday in flash. i'm no artist by any means, but i feel that learning about animations in flash and how to utilize them for our website will be a good thing! I just wish all this website stuff would come naturally instead of being like learning a foreign language. i suppose that which tests us only makes us stronger in the end...

lunch times have been so nice and peaceful lately. its just me and a book. right now that book is harry potter and the goblet of fire. (probably why i am so into listening to the soundtracks too) its just a great escape for a half and hour to be able to read a chapter and put aside all of my work duties. to find that one time during the day where my focus can be on something other than camp. and i'm finding that it helps me come back to my afternoons more focused.

sometimes i wish i had the ability to understand why people make the decisions they do... or that they would give explanations and not just the "because i said so" line. i don't mind the decisions if i know the reasoning behind them. i suppose i've always been that way, even as a kid. haha. tell me why and i'm much happier to do it.

the snow is slowly melting and the birds are such a nice sound to hear in the mornings. it looks like spring outside, but the temperatures just aren't quite there yet..

yesterday i received my book of art by tim burton! its been a long time since i got that excited over a book! haha. but its great. and sometimes i think that its what people say about tim in the book that makes it truly wonderful. yes, the art is awesome... but its the man behind the art that makes it what it is. this has sparked me to a tim burton movie marathon, starting back with beetle juice. i noticed i am missing a few movies, so i'll have to work on that, but i was quite pleased to learn that i had most of them.

sweeny todd still stands as one of my favorites. from the music to the costumes and imagery, to the great actors that played the parts so well... its one of the great examples of the collaboration of tim burton and johnny depp. (in my opinion)

pink champagne

i can't believe that march is almost over. time is flying by sooo fast. and while, yes, i want nice warm spring weather, i also want time to go slowly. there are so many good things happening in life right now that i just want each day to take its sweet old time so i can truly appreciate all of it.

the tracker on my fed ex package says that tomorrow my Tim Burton book should be arriving to my house! i am soooo excited for this book. Tim Burton has a way of creating images in a way that i just relate to. dark, beautiful, and weird. He has a brilliant mind for art. sometimes i wonder what would happen if you put lovedrug to work doing music for one of his movies. i would love it! haha.

i love getting updates from lovedrug while they are in the studio. :)

this weekend i went shopping. its hard to look forward to spring when you don't have any clothes that really fit you anymore. haha. and i find that if you pray before you shop, you get better results. haha!

saturday was such a perfect day. the sun was shining, i was having a good day shopping, yellowcard was playing as my soundtrack and it just felt like spring, even if the temperatures weren't quite following suit. one of the best parts about my day was running into my cousin at old navy. it had been over a year since we last saw each other, and yet, it seemed like time had stood still in some aspects. i love my cousin dearly and seeing him so soo good for my soul! put a smile on my face and reassured me that all was ok!

we even got on the topic of lovedrug and their campaign to raise funds for the studio. he is a musician as well, so it was great to be able to share with him about supporting my favorite band... and i think gave him some ideas for putting out a cd of his own! which would be amazing and is something i think he should have done a long time ago. haha.

the only part of my weekend that made me sad was finding out mantel was sick.

oh and did i mention it was a great weekend for college basketball! the games were so good. and i loved seeing an 11 seed beat a number 1 seed. what a great game. i like to see the teams that no one expects to do much, win their games and continue advance.

here's to staying positive this week, to getting lots of work done, to learning new things and to spending time with family and friends!

pretend you're alive

the sun has finally decided to show its face, for what looks like a pretty good ending to a morning full of snow.

i enjoyed a nice snow day yesterday and received notice that my book of art by tim burton had been shipped. unfortunately i won't get it until next week... i am super excited about this book. deb once got me the illustrated book for a nightmare before christmas, which had tim burton's artwork/sketches for the movie in it. it was such a perfect gift! so this year, after getting my tax refund, i decided to treat myself to a full collection of his art. i'm a big fan!

i'm also excited to be getting updates from the studio as LOVEDRUG records their new cd. it makes me so happy to know that they are able to continue to make music and follow their passions! i'm sure this cd will be one of their best!

today i'm working on designing a website for camp. yes, we do already have one, but for me, maintaining the existing site, is just the beginning. this of course means learning how to make a website from scratch, but i suppose i'm up to that challenge right now.
step one: defining a site - check.
step two: picking a color scheme - check.
step three: ??? still working on that one. haha.

dancing...

last night i fell asleep to the sound of rain and this morning i awoke to the sound of birds singing. sure signs that spring is here... unfortunately, the warm weather has not yet taken over from the freezing temps. soon. i'm ready for driving with the windows down!

i spent all day saturday in flint. it was a great time. coldstone, the boondock saints/all saints day, power outages, an attempt at some irish food, and just being in the company of good friends.

sometimes i wish i was easy to say the things that are on my heart... but when the good things you want to say to encourage a friend also mean opening yourself up to some pain, it becomes more difficult. i find that my mind just wants to go blank and not even process the words to say. i'm afraid that this is leading to a block in my friendship. all i want to do is open up and say what a blessing this friendship has been to me, but i just can't get the words out...

i'm beginning to work through my reading list that JRose gave me two summer's ago. it seems that reading books is a habit i would like to get back into. i suppose if i replaced some of my tv watching with reading i would get a lot further with that list. it is pretty sad that its been 2 years and i haven't made it through even half of the list. i actually missed my lazy sunday afternoons when i would sit outside and read... i think i need to make sure that happens again this year! which i suppose will be somewhat easy seeing as how i'm not planning to live all summer at the camp.

its going to be a very different time this summer. i am going to be better about the amount of hours i'm putting in and since my friends won't be at camp this year, i'll be wanting to still spend time in flint...

for as much as i want summer to come, i want time to pass slowly so that i can cherish each moment i have with mantel and jrose. it seems that time goes so quickly these days, that i don't want to wish anything away... not even to get to warmer weather. haha.

i need to go to ikea soon to pick up items for kick-off. that will be fun! i remember going shopping there last spring, only that trip was to shop for items to decorate up my cabin. boy is it weird to think of how much my life has changed since then. last year i was helping to plan our first and only project festival and dreaming about my cabin and how fun summer was going to be...

this year all i can think about is keeping up with work and hanging out in flint haha!

but in the midst of all the changes, God is good and i am so thankful and blessed.

blow up a rainbow...

...seems kind of fitting of a week of st patty's day fun! and it seems that i have started a trend with my blog to only use titles or lyrics from lovedrug's songs... so can't stop now. haha.

i'm looking forward to a wonderful weekend of family and friends. its amazing to look back at only a few months ago and see how differently i thought this year would be and how happy i am that God had other plans.

letting go is not always an easy thing to do... and being hurt is never fun. but God has shown me that i'm a lot stronger than i ever thought i could be.

this winter has been one of joy and hope and much thankfulness. and i am excited about all that spring has to bring.

when life doesn't seem to make sense, start to be thankful for the little things that God brings into your life daily and i bet it will start to make a difference.

we were owls...

Happy St. Patty's Day!

So excited for this holiday. its one of my favorites. and unfortunately it lands on a thursday so my celebrating has gotten moved to saturday... which isn't all bad, because it means that i can hang out all day with some great friends, watch the boondock saints movies and cook/eat irish food!

i'm also looking forward to making shamrock cookies (hopefully with my niece and sister) and having a snow free weekend!

after driving home from seeing the get up kids in detroit last thursday i've been completely over and done with snow.

its so nice to hear the birds outside my window and to know that spring is finally taking hold here in michigan.

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and shepherds we shall be, for thee my Lord for Thee.
power hath descended forth from Thy hand,
that our feet may swiftly carry out Thy command.
so we shall flow a river forth to Thee
and teeming with souls shall it ever be
in nomine patris et filii et spiritus sancti

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everything starts where it ends...

March 1...
I am ready for spring. something about the fact that the calendar now tells us its march should automatically bring warmer weather. haha. but living in michigan, we all know that the snow will not yield so quickly.

i had a great weekend, despite not feeling well. after work on saturday i met up with josh and taylor and had a great time hanging out! Seeing HTD was great and i already feel a slight sadness in my heart. 10 years of music and friendship. wow. it was good to be reminded that friendship doesn't end with the music...


i do think whatever sickness was zapping my energy and keeping me from breathing easy is finally passing. and for that i am very thankful!

i am very much looking forward to seeing rango soon and celebrating st. patty's day!